I thought I loved you, but you didn't love me

How could I be so stupid, and so naive

There are a few things that I have learned, from all my struggles in past

How could anyone believe that true love really does last

I've carried myself with greatness and pride

but look where did all of those tears go that I've cried

Like our love, and like the wind

they blew away, taken within our sins

At times loved you, at times I wanted to kill you

and this is one of those times, that I hate you for all this BS your putting me through

I've tried and triend, for so very long

to keep my head up, to keep going strong

Its not that easy, really its not

in the start its like a rainy day outside and your life in now just a blob

I have grown out of those drepression days,

for that is not how I want to live my todays

I'm not lying here for you to come home,

because now there is no kindom or throne

I treated you like my king,

and when you were through with me you trashed me like every other thing

My mom, friends, and other family kept me on the right track,

and now its my turn to stab you in the back

I want to let you know just how angry I am,

how much it hurt me that at night you would come home drunk and the doors would slam

It wasn't fare to you, and it sure wasn't fare to me

How sometimes you changed the locks and didn't give me a new key

You locked me out of the house, so why was it such a surprise that you locked me from your life

After I learned you didn't care for me the way I did for you, I ran back to my apartment

I started my usual routine, grabbing a kitchen knife...

Everyone knew what I did then,

I would try to hide the marks, and all the scars

So I'd tell my family I'd cut myself on some glass the previous night at a local bar

Sooner or later they put 2 and 2 together,

they admitted me to a drug rehab where I would stay forever

Unless I got my life back where it was before,

Again I tried to explain that what they wanted couldn't be

for you didn't love me